Nessav, 46

i'm currently a stay-at-home mom with 2 young kids and i'm getting out of something complicated. i'm sure that will scares 99.99% of you off but i believe in putting the truth out there so people know what they are getting with me. growing up in south africa with it's political climate and apartheid i could never truly give in to my deep attraction to caucasian men. something i have deeply regretted but at 44, i'm choosing myself finally, speaking my truth, learning to understand myself, my passions and my desires both in love and life. i'm complex, creative, silly and sensitive. i love people, seeing them grow and change. i'm a deep thinker, i strong but i'm also soft and fragile in some ways. i'm broken but i'm an active participant in my own healing journey. i'm a fiercely loyal friend and i offer that freely. i'm dipping my toes here looking for friendship and eventually a possible love connection but i'm not rushing anything.
if what i'm about and what i have shared isn't your cup of tea, no harm no foul. if you are possibly up for the challenge please be a man, not a boy in a man's body. strong in your convictions, in touch with your inner world, kind to yourself, those you care for and the greater populace. if you are someone who can provide a deeply safe and caring atmosphere in friendship and love, and you are genuine about it please step to the front of the line. i'm a mystery box to be unpacked, if you are up for it, come and find me.