Blkdenim4u, 39

Join BlkDenim Expressway A long strange krazy trip. Especially in this modern world built by humans. I puzzle over walls my past women put up to "protect" themselves as they are contradictory and they undermine my purpose in life - to share. I am frustrated by the accepted hypocrisies I see in virtually every human endeavor. I am dismayed by the apathy that allows and silently supports the careless "productivity" that depletes my fantasy world and unfairly distributes the love and affections of others, leaving many to fight for true love and die without experiencing a fraction of the potential love or life has to offer.
I detest greed and the insecurity behind it, seeing wealth not as power but the "need" for wealth as weakness. I do my best not to participate in the social suicide most people accept and appear to enjoy. I try to keep my eyes open and use them to see what's around me. Same for all my senses. I respect balance and security and positivity and sharing. I strive to support life.
Through all my experiences my first priority has been searching for "the one" who could and would experience life and share everything unconditionally with me. That has made this life an emotional roller coaster ride that at times dragged me through hells beneath my worst nightmares that depressed me to moments of doubt about wanting to continue staying in this life., but I resist any diminishing of my senses that might reduce emotional experiences because the heights of peace and pleasure and euphoria and the dream that I'll find "the one" is worth the challenges.